So I've been pretty depressed lately. I thought it was triggered by having the aunt living with us, but we moved her out the week before Christmas (this was not as cruel as it may sound). Throughout this time, I have had a terrible attitude at work and prone to uncontrollable crying spells, particularly when forced to self-analyze. It's a horrible, disgusting state of mind, and it's holding me back from life.
I know it's going to come back. But this time I'm going to try a technique recommended from my Kaiser anxiety class. I'm going to "journal" (but I'll do it without using that word as a verb anymore) in this lovely blog here.
My ideal result is to get to a positive mindset more often than not. I would like to think well enough of myself to eat right and exercise, and work my way down to around 135 lbs. I would like to treat other people kindly, even when I don't feel like it. They don't deserve to suffer just because I am. So let's see what happens.
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